21 May Do you really want to be in a relationship…or not?
Whether you want to be in a relationship or not isn’t necessarily an easy question to answer.
Speaking to a woman this morning at my gym, we were talking about how some women seem to attract men to them like bees to honey while other women seem to have a more difficult time.
I made the comment that some women are more “prickly,” like a cactus. Her husband was sitting nearby and he laughed. I asked if that made sense to him and he said yes…and named some specific kind of cactus he knew.
This couple has been married for over 50 years, a testament to making a relationship work. She said it isn’t always easy. Pretty much everyone who’s been in a long-standing relationship says that, and it’s usually followed by “and it’s worth it.”
Why is it worth it?
- You’ve got a best friend by your side.
- You’ve got a partner with whom you’ve built a lifetime of memories, who you can laugh and retell the stories of your life with.
- You’ve built a solid foundation of love and family to spend the rest of your days with. Someone to play golf and ski with or to garden and sit in rocking chairs holding hands with – however you choose to retire or live out the later years of your life.
But you have to want it.
You have to want to be in a relationship and not question it at all times.
Do you waver between “it’s the most important thing to me…to find my life partner, there’s nothing I want more” and “I’m not sure how I’ll do, sharing my life with someone because it’s been so long and I’m not sure I’ll like sharing my time and space and having to ‘report’ to someone?”
If so, then that’s a story you’re telling yourself. That “either – or” dialogue is going to keep you from getting what you really want.
We all struggle with holding the complexity of wanting both freedom and intimacy.
And ultimately, if you are solid in your sense of self, and in the right relationship – you work that out within the context of your relationship.
You cannot make peace with that out OUTSIDE of a relationship. You can only heal that wound IN a relationship, not outside of one.
Even those of us who LOVE being in a relationship and want to be in a relationship – men & women, extroverts & introverts, secure & insecure – have feelings of wanting freedom while wanting intimacy.
However, if you remain prickly, protecting yourself from having to have to make that decision, then you won’t have to make that decision. And that’s a decision in itself.
You won’t be in a relationship.
You’ll be alone.
Instead, if you want to be in a relationship, take a chance. Work on yourself in a new way. Believe that it’s possible to be in a relationship and feel a sense of self while in it.
You’ll finally have what you want.
A life-long companion.
And…no more love-less nights alone in bed.